It’s been awhile since I have updated everyone on my life. Honestly, it still feels out of control. It’s like I almost don’t have my footing.
As I wrote before, I have just gotten over a severe case of pneumonia over two months ago. It was horrible. I still don’t feel as if I have recovered from it. In the past two months I have gotten a lot of stomach bugs and one regular cold. Ah Winter, the season that keeps on giving. I just haven’t felt right since. I was pretty rundown before the pneumonia. However, this feels different. I think since I am still under a lot of stress my body just can’t take it.
I have had to miss so many appointments and cancel out on people in the last few months. I really hate doing that. Appointments are so hard to come by. I tried to avoid same day cancellations. I try to at least get the provider their tip so they don’t lose out on money. Fortunately, I only had one or two that I had to do that way.
I am trying very hard to get back to feeling better. More water, eating better and trying to get out of the house. I have also spent more time doing self care. Going to bed early, getting a massage and other things. I still have a long way to go.
My son is still at the same point as he was at the last update. He can only manage about 15 minutes in one normal class. I have no idea what to do next. His therapist and I are challenging him to do one extra minute a day. So far he hasn’t done it. If he can do one extra minute a day, he will be up to an hour at the end of the year.
In addition to his mental health therapy I have started to take him to an eating disorder clinic. It was the same one he went through last year. So I returned with him on an outpatient basis. He goes to a dietician at night and family therapy in the afternoon. So far I’ve gotten him to eat a banana but not much else new. Apple no, Tater Tots no, and other things?? At least he is crazy about Ramen. He eats about 4 bowls a day. The only problem is he eats noodles. What I need help with is fruits and veggies of which he eats none. I’m not 100% certain of the diagnosis of ARFID, as an eating disorder. The also want me to start seeing and OT again. They are going to try and get referrals for me for my son. Another provider to visit? I don’t know. He saw an OT for over a year a few years ago. It didn’t do any good. Would a different OT do anything?
He’s seeing a tutor twice a week on the weekends. He isn’t in math class long enough to understand the teaching. However, everything he turns in is late because we have to wait for the tutor. I have purchased a Life Science and History textbook to help him understand what he missed in the school year this summer.
I see my son getting left behind. I don’t know what to do. He gets upset and goes through crying spells and anger at this anxiety. I don’t know what else to do.
I have gotten to go somewhere for fun twice in the last six months. I went to a flower show which was cute. Then I also saw a decorator home open for charity. I think I need to get out more!